I'm a Fish Out of Water

So here's the thing :

I'M LIVING IN JAPAN NOW !!!

Big ? I know .

At first it was VERY VERY hard . Saying goodbye to everyone I know back home and can't see them for a year was absolutely a pain for me .

Gimana ya ? Gw ngakuin kalo gw adalah orang yang cengeng , tapi bukan berarti lemah . Nangis bukan berarti lemah (menurut gw) , itu cuma salah satu cara melegakan perasaan . Karena kalo gw nahan perasaan gw , asma gw akan dengan segera kambuh .

Anyway , as I get here , I was so happy because I have almost everything that I need to live for a year . Ada mesin cuci , microwave , ac , and hot water bath !! Thank God . Tapi banyak juga barang2 yang ga ada . Tempat sampah , kotak serbaguna , lap dsb musti gw beli lagi . Lumayan , belanja kayak gitu menghabiskan sekita 8000-an Yen (mencakup barang2 sehari2 juga kayak deterjen , beras , dsb) . Tapi tanpa barang2 itu , bisa2 kamar gw jorok dan gw tidak bisa ngurus kamar , so it was worth it .

Kampus belum mulai . Tnggal 9 baru orientasi segala macem , mulai kuliahnya tanggal 24 (ya Allah) . Jadi masih nyantai2 aja , oia gw juga lagi melancarkan lagi naik sepeda , semoga ga jatoh . Gw merasa asiiiiiing banget .

Gw emang orang yg SKSD , tapi kalo gw lagi pengen diem ya gw dieeeeeem aja . I hope no one got offended by that . Karena gw masih ngerasa homesick , jadi gw agak dalam kondisi bad mood . Tapi thank God , berkat skype dll gw masih bisa kontak sama keluarga dan terutama sama Satria .

I miss them so very much .

I guess being a fish out of water is the best describing my condition right now .

Yes , We Will Be Apart

Pisah .

Pasangan mana sih yang mau pisah ?
Apalagi pisahnya sampe pisah negara segala .

No couple would ever wants that .

Including me and my boyfriend .

When I got this scholarship , I was so thrilled and I still am .
But lately , it just bites even harder .
And suddenly I found myself staring at a very limited amount of time ahead .

I will be going on September 1st .
It is soon .

Nangis ?
Jangan ditanya .

Ngebayangin tanpa temen .
Tanpa keluarga .

Even worse , tanpa Satria .
He's my bestfriend in the world .
No one knew me better than him .
Listen to my every story .
Cheer me up every time I got beaten up .

He's anything and everything that matter the most .
How could I ever be apart from him ??

Well , reality check .
I will be apart from him .
VERY SOON .

Is it hard ?
Damn right it is .

Meskipun masih barengan , tapi sakitnya udah mulai kerasa .
Gw takut . Gw ga pernah jauh sama dia .
Tapi , gimanapun reality bites hard .
Sakit , but I have to endure it .

I owe Satria a lot .
Bisa mengerti bahwa pacarnya harus pisah negara adalah hal yang sangat demanding .
Tapi seperti kata Michael Buble di lagunya Home :

And I know just why you could not come along with me . Cause this was not your dream , but you always believe in me .

That's why I think he's not just the best boyfriend ever .
He is the greatest friend who always believe in me .
No matter how bitchy , silly , and moody I am .

I Just Want To Talk

Kalian ,

Siapapun yang merasa menyakiti gw di masa lalu dan sekarang .
Yang menghirup udara yang sama dengan gw .
Yang membohongi gw dari hari ke hari .

Terserah lah gw mau dibilang berlebihan atau apapun .

But I do have the rights to know !!

I had enough of being yelled at everytime !
Gw itu manusia !!!
Punya perasaan , punya hati .
Emang dimarahin tiap waktu itu ga ada rasanya ?

Gw ga tuli !!!!
Ga perlu bentak-bentak .
Ga perlu sinis-sinis .

Sakit tau disinisin tuh .
Sakit tau dimarahin tuh .
Sakit tau dibentak-bentak tuh .

Lebih sakit lagi dibohongin .

Kalian pasti ga tau betapa jauh perjalanan yang harus gw tempuh untuk menjadi seseorang yang sober dan tau mau dibawa kemana hidup ini .

Padahal kalian busy with your own problem and
THAT FUCKIN' GUY U DATED LONG TIME AGO !!!
Yang kalo gw bisa , gw sunat sampe abis itu orang .

Di sisi lain , I was struggled to gain my life back .

SENDIRI !!
Menghadapi kebohongongan2 , fights , eveything .
MALU DONG WOY !!!

Bayangin being alone !!!
I can't talk to you anymore .

When I try to talk , you guys always busy with work .
Busy with Blackberry .
Busy with yourself .
And all u guys did was just yell at me the whole time .

Saat gw mulai merasakan damai .
Kenapa fakta yang ada malah nyakitin gw ?
Apa gw ga berhak buat merasa tenang ??
GAK BOLEH , HAH ?!?!

Apa salah gw kalo ada sesuatu yang salah dalam hidup kalian ??
Apa gw layak mendapatkan bentakan2 itu ??
Gw bukan batu !


Apa sih hal yang ga gw lakukan buat kalian ??
I DESERVE MORE THAN THIS .

I will grow up myself .
No thanks to you .

And I hope you happy with your choice .
I certainly not .

I Heart Paris !!

I think Paris is amazing . Here's why :

The people are so darn stylish

couple can kiss EVERYWHERE . And I would love to actually try it without worrying that my parents will strangle me because of that .

do I even need to explain this pic ? It's gorgeous !!

The shoes is EFFING awesome !! Whoever got that shoes has been touched by the God of Fashion

Geez .

I need a new FAB shoes .
Pronto .

The Women From Concrete Jungle

I wish I can go to NY someday .

It's because the women is the so-called "glamazon" .
Woman who live the life of the concrete jungle .
Those who rules the urban cool life .

I'm so jealous .
Here I can even wear my heels without curious stare from people .
I just hate it when they do that .

Kalo gue pake high heels emang kenapa sih ?
Kenapa juga gitu yah musti ngeliatiiiin aja ??

I mean , fashion should be fun .
Not being a like a freak-show that require a stare or something .

Geee....
Let those skanky fashion offenders BE GONE !!

Flats Anyone ??

First of all , let me tell you this :

I HATE SANDALS !!

Not because it's ugly or I'm too fancy to wear it . It's just I have a terrible toes and I'm pretty much short , so I don't get along very well with sandals .

Besides , I have a hard time to pull off a look with sandals .
In fact , I wear sandals ONLY when I go to the beach .
And wearing a really insane shorts .
Other than that , I will pass .

But these babies are delicious , rite ?
Especially the blue one .
It's so catchy and poppin'
I love it .
The design is quite awkward , which I love .
And the red nails really makes it POP !

So this summer sandals are really making a comeback .

Kelas B-Quw Tersayang.......

Mungkin postingan ini kesannya ga penting......

Atau mungkin kerasa sok penting .
Yah intinya sih , jangan dihujat ya ! Curcol nih gw .

Pas gw liat foto ini , gw jadi berasa kangen ama kelas B .
Kelas yang bareng2 menjalani sulitnya kehidupan bermahasiswa selama 3 taon .
Kelas yang kalo gw cabut dengan senang hati dititipin absen (wakakak makasih ye) .
Kelas yang selalu rame kalo pelajaran Pak Ade .
Kelas dimana gw nemuin Bonbin PSBJ .

We've came a long way .
Udah jauh ya perjalanan sama kelas B .
Mungkin pas gw ketemu kalian lagi taon depan , udah ada yang mau lulus .
Mungkin udah ga sekelas lagi karena ada yang ngambil Lingu , ada juga yang ngambil Sastra .
Gak bisa gosip lagi sama Ryan .
Gak bisa beli pulsa dan pinjem majalah lagi sama Deisha .
Gak bisa lagi belajar bareng Vidi .
Gak bisa lagi pulang bareng Feby dan Dhinie .
Gak bisa lagi nitip absen ke Dara .
Gak bisa lagi minta minum ke Puput .
dan gak bisa-gak bisa lainnya .

Udah mau mewek gini gw hahahaha .

LEBAY GILA !

Ah sebodo deh .
Gw cuma pengen bilang TERIMA KASIH .

Terima kasih ya temen-temen....
Karena gw kadang ngesok .
Karena gw kadang toa .
Karena gw kadang sotoy .
Dan karena-karena lain yang bikin kalian pengen ngejitak gw pake martil .
Tapi kalian masih mau temenan sama gw . Masih mau maklumin gw .

I will be missing all of you .
Meskipun gw belum tentu juga jadi ke Jepang .
Tapi kalo emang jadi , kayaknya susah nemuin Kelas B di belantara Tenri sono hehehe .
Kalopun ga jadi , tetep aja pasti kita ada yang ga sekelas lagi .

Huuuuffff........

Udah ah , gw mo mewek beneran .